Read an excerpt of her memoir.
Mel B's new memoir includes details concerning her suicide attempt that took place in December 2014. She penned Brutally Honest to share her life experiences, including the precise moment she tried to take her life and the aftermath of her actions.
The 43-year-old reveals the events leading up to her decision to swallow 200 Aspirin pills. What followed was a crucial moment in her life as she immediately regretted the act. According to an excerpt of her book published by The Sun, the Spice Girl singer was hit with remorse and confusion after ingesting the last pill, leading her to seek medical attention in order to continue living.
"'Now what's going to happen, Melanie? STOP!' As soon as I'd swallowed that last pill, I knew I didn't want to go anywhere."
"Melanie! What the f--k are you doing? Get a grip!' Suicide was not the answer. I had to make my life count. I had to get to a hospital."
She also wrote about inflicting bruises on her face and shoulder that "everyone saw at The X Factor final three days later." The injury was caused by her lunging her body at the bathroom door that was jammed during the incident.
Although she survived, her young daughter's worry might have been the most heartbreaking part of the situation.
"It was the saddest moment of my life," Mel wrote. "All I ever want is for her to know how sorry I am, how lost I was and how I'll never, ever abandon her again."